January 3rd, 2006

{ naruto ; kyuubi } rawr


Hmm, guess I haven't updated for real in awhile. I went on a masochism streak last night, man that was alot of blood. My hands hurt the most but my legs are pretty torn up as well. I have been a serious writing whore as of late. Haven't had much inspiration otherwise, I drew a picture of emo gaara isn't he cute :P Anyways, I go back to the abode of condemned souls school tommorow. Joy. I'm trying to see how long I can go without eating. If I live off water or something I wont die. Contrary to most people who try just not eating I'm not trying to lose weight. I just want to see how long I can really last. Every night there have been lightning storms. Did you know lightning is hotter than the sun? I kid you not, it is true. Anyways for about three days I lock myself in my bedroom and stare out the window. I'm starting to be an insomniac again. Great. I feel as pathetic as the person I was in seventh grade. Who cares anymore though? I dont. My fingers are bleeding on the keyboard. It's really weird looking. It's seeping from cuts and my fingernails which about half of are bitten off. Okay this is seriously nasty *returns five minutes later with bandaids on all of her fingers and a paper towel for keyboard* Neh, thats better. I wonder how long it'll be before the parents find out. Who cares? I didn't cut my wrists. I'm not suicidal. I don't even see it as self abuse, more like self obligement (if that's a word) but like I said. Who cares?

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