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[**] Return and Gifts

Hey gaiz. Back. So much has happened I'm not getting into it, but, uh, I guess I'll start updating this journal again. Sorry for such an awol term without any warning D: I just... got distracted. Life has been hellish. In the mean time, here's a music meme:

Your Life: The Soundtrack/give backs

So, here’s how it works: Open your music player (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, etc). Put it on shuffle. Press play. For every question type the song that’s playing. When you go to a new question press the next button. Some songs fit perfectly. Comments are love if you take!

Opening Credits: Slave to the Wage [Acoustic] - Placebo +Download+
Birth: 商業思想狂時代考偲曲(平成版) - (MUCC) +Download+ (.m4a)
Waking Up: Bat Country - Avenged Sevenfold +Download+
Working song: Ruled by Secrecy - Muse +Download+
Falling in Love: Teenage Angst - Placebo +Download+
Sex: Kick - Mindless Self Indulgence +Download+
Lusting: Samidare - ムック (MUCC) +Download+
Cooking Dinner: Dream On - Depeche Mode +Download+
Walk in the Park: Pierrot the Clown - Placebo +Download+
Working out at the gym: Anything but This - Static-X +Download+
Fight scene: Sin - Lullaby Renditions of Nine Inch Nails +Download+
Breaking up: Androgyny [Felix da Housecat] - Garbage +Download+
Secret Love: Atatiru - ムック (MUCC) +Download+
Life’s okay: Suicide is Painless - Marilyn Manson +Download+
Mental breakdown: Shunsetsu - the GazettE +Download+
Partying: Gone Forever - Three Days Grace +Download+
Long night alone: User Friendly - Marilyn Manson +Download+
Final Battle: Rokudan - Nanae Yoshimura +Download+
Death Scene: Light Lights up Light - Yoshihisa Hirano and Hideki Taniuchi +Download+
Funeral: Liar, Liar - Alexz Johnson +Download+
Credits: Taiyou no Ao - Dir En Grey +Download+

Okay, so barely any of these fit right, and iTunes had a crush on Placebo and ムック tonight, apparently. Whatever. Doubt any of you will download, but if you do, leave a comment~?
  • Current Music
    Liar, Liar - Alexz Johnson
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I've skipped 3rd period three times this week. Meaning I fucking have to start going next week and pretty much continually. I just can't deal with DrainyteacherBITCHPLZ right now. =_=; I haven't updated LJ in a while, but a couple of traumatizingly embarassing moments have happened this week.

A. Skirt flew up in front of crowd of scary girls. Was recieved with disgusted faces. Was not good.
B. Got wet sitting on DJ and left a spot. He and his girlfriend saw and were all "OMGWTF!!??!!". Was distressed.
C. Hit on to a disgusting degree by Ryan, who was asking for sex.
D. Generally too flustered to think about anything else.

God that sucks -__-;;;;

Happy birthday, Rin darling ♥

Iloveyou. (Yes, you.)
{ naruto ; sasori } apathy

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Sprained my wrist. Can barely type.

Three weeks of Peninsula to go.

Fandomsecret wank made me sad as usual.

Wrist hurts. Hand hurts.

Need more painkillers.

Eating Disorder report depressed the shit out of me.

Worried about you.

Am overrated.
  • Current Music
    Loves Me Not x t.A.T.u.
  • Tags
{ mcr ; gerard } I AM HOMO!!!111!!!!!!!!

God exists?


To Hannah all who knew about the chaos that ensued last night, I love you very much, and I have really good news.

Yesterday I went to Peninsula Lighthouse to go get my assessment. It was pretty much the same as my first assessment, only they asked me a lot less questions and talked to my parents more. We walked out and my mom said the Peninsula lady said that we needed to either:
  • Get me a Case Manager
  • or do Family Therapy

The latter sounded like a completely horrible idea, which I attempted to communicate to my mother in a calm way, but such did not go as planned, and was most certainly a D- by the end of it.

So she takes me to school.

After school, I go to my therapist, Dr. Leese. Dr. Leese says I should go to Peninsula Lighthouse (the Outpatient program), where I would go daily and get my treatment, and I would be able to sleep in my own bed. She also recommended, in a Thank You God sort of way, to not do family therapy.

Mom wasn't pleased.

After Dr. Leese, we have to go back to Peninsula for a meeting with Dr. Greeson.

He, the asshole, tells my parents immediately that I told the woman who did my assessment that I was feeling suicidal, and, continuing to how much of an asshole he is, is all "So why do you want to do it?"

That's not a question you can answer on the spot, dickhead.


Anyways. The meeting progresses, and he says "Well, since you're in this crisis, should you go to the hospital?" Peninsula Hospital is about two hours away from here, it's a 155 bed place where I would be under 24 hour surveillance with no privellages whatsoever, no phones, no internet, no freedoms, and I will supposedly walk out of there, after a week max, "better".

I convince my parents to not take me there.

A two hour nap later at home, I wake up, and they've changed their minds.

First of all, dad now hates me. (He hates suicide, and if I am suicidal, he therefor hates me.) And so he was all ready to ship me off. My heart could have broken my ribs it was beating so hard. My mom convinces him to wait until tomorrow. Dad yells at me and spews bullshit in his rage. Three or four insults in I tune him out.

I go to bed at ten after a very tear filled conversation with Hannah (the_lady_lamb).

I wake up the next morning to him yelling at me to go to school. He tells me that I'm going to class, and that he'll come get me when it's time to go to Peninsula. I get dressed sadly, and go to the bus stop. I wait. (I expect him to drive up and say we were going now any second.)

The entire day at school I'm nauseated. Every time the phone would ring in class I'd have a mini-heart attack.

And then finally, it was for me.

I come down to the west mall where he is waiting, and to my surprise, he hugs me. We get in the car, and he says:

"Well, I've got some good news on your end. Mom went to see a counselor for about two hours today, and she got some solid advice that we're just going to put our faith in. She said do NOT take you to Hospital, that would only hurt you, and that you were probably NOT lying about needing to go to Lighthouse, and that you were NOT lying to go to school, and that I needed to stop being angry at you immediately because it was breaking your heart. Is any of this bullshit to you?"


"-shakes head quickly-"


"Good. Let's go home."

Long story short?

{ futurama ; quote } stuff

Voice Post:

796K 4:12
“Hey, so like, I guess I felt like doing a voice post, obviously, considering I am, making a voice post... Such a tard, aren't I?

Anyway, um, yeah, I gonna prolly end up talking about everything but Peninsula, because I don't really give a shit.

Anyway, yeah, I was- I was serious, I might, this is completely unrelated like I said it would be but I want to tell something about it because it's only funny if- if you say it the right way, and you can't say it the right way over the goddamn internet. So, oh whoa, loophole and shit.

So anyway, like, I went back to the um, like vending machine or whatever, between first and second, and I was buying a delicious drink, and I was like, 'I'm gonna buy a delicious Cherry Coke!' So I put in $1.25 because it's... fucking... expansive and my school's trying to rip us off - which they successfully do. Uh, I put in the money, and I press the little button, and what comes out? It's not a fucking Cherry Coke, it's a Dr. Pepper. Alright, I wanted a delicious Cherry fucking Coke, but the machine, instead, with the taste of originality. It was incredibly distressing. I wasn't happy for instead of my delicious plethora of artificial cherry flavors, I was presented with preen originality. Which I did not want. I do not care about originality, I just wanted my plethora of cherries, and that was the last of my money, so, I was very sad, because Dr. Pepper is Nazi.

Anyway. I done really about that. Well I'm prolly not, I'll prolly, like, interrupt talking about it a few seconds later, I like to do that, but the- that's okay.

Um. Anyway, yeah. Uh, what else do I have to talk about, I really don't that really shitty of me.

Um. I... I miss Stacy quite frankly, like... I mean, I actually probably actually get on the interweb and tell her this, because I'm a whore, but she's never online when I am so it's kinda impossible, but I missed her a lot, like I haven't talked to her in a really shitty long time, and tha- tha- that blows because I miss my dear Stacy... I miss a lot of my best friends, I haven't talked to a lot of people in a long time... Like, just because I've sorta been avoiding AIM, because I've been avoiding my real life friends, which stalk me there... and... I mean... It's not been the coolest... but anyway, yeah,

If anybody knows of any cool concerts that happen to be in the vicinity of Knoxville, Tennessee, or around, tell me where it is because I'm fucking bored all the fucking time, oh my god... (?) Give me information Ticketmaster, I need to know if there is anything worth existing for around here...

Anyway, yes, um... I doubt the uh.. yeah... lost my total train of thought. I'm such a homo. Anyway, uh, I... defiantly don't- oh f really don't know what I was gonna talk about, and I- and that's really annoying because I usually talk and talk and talk and talk and talk and LiveJour- bleh- and LiveJournal's like 'I'm gonna cut you off, ya loser,' cut. And it hurts. It stings with the intensity of.. something- of a papercut or something. Yeah, it stings like a papercut, and that sucks, I hate papercuts... And anyway, I will talk to you guys later. I'll call you guys later.

But I won't really. I won't. Anyway, uh, bye.”

Transcribed by: codetony
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I must have been high when I redid my userinfo.

-stares at it-

... >_>;

Edit: Oh yeah.

They're sending me back to Peninsula.