{ naruto ; itasaso } pop art

ugh.

This last week has been exhausting.

I stopped eating on Sunday, lost fifteen pounds over the course of the week, and barely intook any calories. This, of course, made me tired/emotional. At the same time I was on my period, which was painful and made me even more emotional. At the same time the school therapist, a woman who worked at Peninsula before I ever went (I like her a lot) kept calling me in, and I was so tired that I pretty much told her everything. Including that mom's been hitting me and that I've been starving myself.

She says I'm at extremely high risk for an eating disorder and that I should stop, and that if my mom hits me again, she has to call the Department of Child Services on her. I don't know what I should be doing. =/

As well, the second most sensitive topic that exists for me was addressed. School. Moreso? College. Everytime I think about college I start crying, because I know that wherever I want to go I'll end up not being able to, because of something. Well, this week, I finally decided to research far and wide to find out where I want to go.

University of Wisconsin, in Madison.

Reason?

Japanese.

They have Japanese language (8 semesters), Japanese literature, Eastern religions, Modern Japanese Fiction, Japanese Art, Japanese cinema, introduction to Japanese History, and they offer study abroad programs (One in Nagoya at Nanzan U, One in Sapporo at Hokkaido U, and two in Tokyo, at Sophia U and Keio U. They also have a 3 month internship at Central Japan Railway offered. Their Japanese program is considered one of the best in the USA.

Okay, so I know that UW is EXTREMELY difficult to get into.

But hell.

Girls, be ambitious, right?

I told my parents I wanted to go.

Mom laughed at me and said I wasn't going.

I cried.

:)

If anyone has any info on UW, or frankly, any colleges with A++++ Japanese programs, give it give it. I need more than one option, since I know I won't get accepted. I plan on double majoring in Japanese and English when I get into college, murh. Sure, it's wapanese and fat-fangirl and all of that shit, but y'know?

I don't care, faggots.



School's killing me already.

This past week moved by too slowly.
{ naruto ; kyuubi } rawr

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Okay, I love aradiantsun :|

Also, first day at work was okay ♥ I'm calming down.

Though I've been having a shitload of nosebleeds lately. 5 in three days. That worries me :/

Mom's been hitting me.

I'm going to.. stop eating for a while.
{ naruto ; kyuubi } rawr

OHMYGODSCHOOL.

EPICALLY LONG SUMMARY OF MY FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL THAT I WILL BE GUILTED INTO PUT UNDER A CUT :|


Yeah.

First day of school as a sophomore. It went a little something like this:

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Whut.

So yeah.

First day of school :|

Mom's being a bitch again. She slapped me a couple times the other day and I didn't tell dad about it. Then today she had the guts to call me Immature. I'm getting tired of this.
{ naruto ; sasuke } damaged

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"Another Gay Movie."

Watch it.

(... Goddamn Cassie really gets under my skin.

And my pant fabric.)

In other news, school starts in.. two days. Great :|

And my best friend is moving away.

... Great. :|

(Lighter, happier note now? oshima_high lives again >:3)

Also.

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Bad mood :|
{ dane cook } god blesseth

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I really wish I had the guts to write about my life in this journal like synthetyk does. My friend Kaleigh told me if I talked about it, in my personal space, people would find out how much of an emo faggot I really am and no one would want to talk to me anymore. Fuck that shit. I'm tired of keeping a second journal to rant in. Why the fuck shouldn't I be able to rant in my own journal? IT'S MINE. I got it when I was 11 or 12. And hopefully I'll change the username someday. Anyone have ten bucks you'd like to transfer to my paypal account? Anyone? I have five saved. >__>;

Anyways.

Enough LJ wank.

Speaking of Kaleigh, I had sex with her. I'm amazingly open about who I fuck, apparently. I seme'd, go figure. She's not as emotionally mature as me though, so.. I guess it works. But it's funny, really. I've fucked her boyfriend too. Granted, she was there and it was a technical threesome, but whatever. Sex calms me down. It's strange. Not addictive. Just... calming.

I've been really.. messed up lately. Sleeping all day, I haven't been able to draw, and I've only been able to write fucked up stuff. I miss Cassie. I miss laying in bed with her and her telling me everything is going to be okay. I miss laughing over fucking retarded stuff, just because of the way she says it makes it sound funny. I hate that I like her so much. I hate that Kaleigh only reminds me every two seconds Cassie's gonna break my heart. I know she will. But for right now, can I be happy? Please? Bitch. >|

I'm so worried about Stacie and Lily.

Goddamn.

I should go sleep.
{ naruto ; kyuubi } rawr

Wowz.

THE AKATSUKI MEME ;D

1. Name your three favorite Akatsuki members, and why.
In order: Sasori, Itachi, Leader-sama

2. Name your three least favorite Akatsuki members, and why.
not possible <3

3. Your two favorite in-Akatsuki pairings, and why.
MMM. ItaSaso... and.. LeaderSaso >__>

4. Your two least favorite in-Akatsuki pairings, and why.
DeiTobi. I HATE THE IDEA OF AKATSUKI FLUFF. And pretty much anyonexTobi. >:

5. Do you support any AkatsukixOutsideAkatsuki pairings? If so, which ones, and why.
MMM LOTS >D Lesse. Anyone in the Akatsuki x Ino, SASOINO AND DEIINO in specific, Anyone in the Akatsuki x Tayuya, DEITAYUSASO and ITATAYU in specific, and many many yaoi pairings, such as all varieties of Uchihacest and NejiSaso :3

6. Do you dislike any AkatsukixOutsideAkatsuki pairings? If so, which ones, and why.
Um.. SasoTema. I have no idea why I don't like that so much @_@

7. From #1, would you like to see an orgy of those three characters?
Stealing Tema's answer: "...OH HELLZ YEAH. And Leader-sama will be like "Hey bitches this is your mission now >\" and it would be amazingly kinky."

8. How about #3. Should they have a foursome? How about your supported pairings from #5?
Well, it would be a threesome. THE EXACT SAME THREESOME FROM NUMBER 7 >__>; AND NUMBER 5. OMG. TayuLeaderKakuZetHidaKisaDeiItaTobiInoShiMikoSasuFugaMadaSaso. OT16 ♥

9. Do you think any of the Akatsuki are ugly?
Hell no.

10. How old do you suppose Kakuzu is?
Pretty old. Maybe in his 80s?

11. Why is Kisame blue?
Some jutsu or another.

12. Where did Zetsu come from?
Land of Grass?

13. Is Hidan a masochist?
OH GEE. I WONDAR.

14. Is Deidara insane?
... UM, WOW. DURH.

15. Is Tobi a good boy?
No. He's not :<

16. Is Itachi a sympathetic character for you?
Okay, taking Tema's answer again: "Tch no. You kill your family and your amazingly sexy mother (AND BEAUTIFUL OLDER COUSIN), you win no sympathy from me."

17. How does Sasori get it on?
With Itachi~

18. Is the blue-haired person a girl? Do you even care?
I think he's a guy, JUST TO SPITE THE FANDOM.

19. Is the Leader Yondaime?
... No.

20. Does Orochimaru fap with his snakes at night?
YES :<

21. Do you support the ObiTobi theory?
Yes.

22. ZeTobi or DeiTobi?
ZETTOBI, HELLLLLAYEAH ;D

23. SasoDei or DeiTobi?
DEISASO :<

24. Have your favorite Akatsuki members from #1 already died?
Only one, AND HE'S MY FAVORITE ;_;

25. Did Hidan deserve what he got? If not, do you hate Shikamaru?
No one deserves that >/ And I don't hate Shika.

26. What Akatsuki pairing in the most canon?
Um... I haven't read the manga in a while, so... OF COURSE ITASASO IS CANNON GAIZ, DIDN'T YOU READ THE HIDDEN CHAPTERS? >__>

27. What Akatsuki pairing is the least canon?
Probably... KakuTobi. -actually thought that out- >>